don't panic

day
wake up around 11 ish.
finish mythology.
sit around the house.
start chatting with arda. he asks me if i will join him for a bike ride to david's. i check if i have a bike pump to pump up my tires which i havent used in a couple of months. i got it. i shower and pump up the bike. he arrives. we depart.
bike ride is enjoyable. much better than the usual solo bike ride. throw in some cuts from the bike chain and a couple angry drivers and it is quite an adventure.
arrive at davids. everyone is in the garage building a ping pong table. find out the table is bent so go back to get a new one. in the mean time we grill burgers. eat. finish ping pong table. play around for a bit.
around 8 i get shunned for not having finished my summer homework and for having so much left to do. around 8 30 a loud honking noise is sounded from an suv driving towards us. my mother knows how to make an entrance. i, completely embarrassed, try to hurry to get my bike in the trunk and leave. im not sure why, if i was worried davids dad might get a little pissed, or people might find out my mother is just odd. i ask if i can drive. i sit in the front seat. instead of hitting the break i hit the gas and accidently rev the engine. my mothers seat was too far up so my footing was off. that increased the embarassment as now people think im a douche bag who likes to rev. i take off. and start the drive home.
i question my mother why she decided to honk. she figured it was harmless. what i really found out is my dad hates it when she honks, so i guess she was really just trying to break free. understandable.
small squabble with me and her in the car. a bit tired of the constant nagging.
we pull up. i put my bike in the garage.
i come in. shouts. yells. tears. not willing to be a spectator for maybe the 20th fight in the past couple of days i trample up the stairs and sit down with my dogs. i now lock myself in the room. these fights are affecting more than just my mother and father. i failed to see david off to pennsylvania 2 weeks ago because i was consoling my mother. i did not go to gabes party yesterday because me asking would probably cause just another spout. i get my good days ruined because of them. and now i wonder if this is just a short phase like its always been. the couple times in the year when my parents seem to be less compatible than they ever are. usually it goes away. this time, im not sure.
and i, the idiot son, gave my mother crap about honking her horn for 5 seconds straight when she has enough crap at home with my dad. she said i talk to her like my dad. i felt really bad.
and so for the next couple of days i will be locked in my house doing useless summer homework with the privilege to be a spectator of this household feud. i wonder if people will judge this.


cuzz i do.